So Grayson might have Dyspraxia, and possibly ADHD. These are the initial thoughts of my sister who is qualified as a SENCO in school. Preschool have already confirmed they have concerns, well at least they confirmed this when I raised my concerns. Having that conversation was massively hard, part of me was so relieved that they were seeing what I was seeing and part of me was devastated. I’ve had a week to get my head around this, and now I’m all about getting support, a diagnosis, or not, and moving forward on this journey. Thankfully Katie can do the same assessments that the SENCO at the preschool will be doing, so I feel we are slightly ahead of the game in that aspect. This means I can endlessly google, read anything and everything and add even more to my Pinterest boards! Probably will also worry myself silly, but hey at least I feel like I am making some progress. next step is to have the SENCO come into his pre school setting and then refer us on. The other route is the medical route, so I have made an appointment to see the Health Visitor to get this ball rolling too. Hopefully we will then get referred to the paediatric team. It seems its a long winded process whichever route you take so its a case of having fingers in a lot of pies. There is also the option of a private route, so I am investigating that too. I just cannot stand the thought of potentially a two year process, when we could be moving forward and getting him help and support now.
For now I just have to take a deep breath and stay calm when we have a melt down, or run out of M&S directly into the carpark – yes that happened today, and all the other things that happen daily. Its so hard to know what is direct naughtiness and what is not entirely his fault. This is going to take some getting used to, and I cannot wait to learn some techniques to help me deal with the behaviours and struggles that he seems to have. He is such a bright little button, and is so funny and loving. He is my perfect little man, just maybe with some differences from other children, thats all. I love him to bits, he truly makes my heart melt, ok he makes my blood boil at times and frustrates me like crazy, but thats all part of being a mummy I think. We’ll get through this in our own way, we’ll figure it all out and find a way, I know we will. It just all feels a little unknown and raw at the moment. My heart hurts.